Active waiting

Active waiting

Many wonder what is happening with the adoption.  The easy and possibly frustrating response is nothing.

We haven't received any feedback via email.   We don't see if our paperwork has moved from one desk to another.

We don't know if anyone has even opened our information since we got approval 1 year ago.

I'm sure you probably are standing their with your mouth open.  "What do you mean?  Is it possible that your packet has sat in some file for 2 years?"- maybe.  I don't know.  All I know is that we are waiting.  "Is it possible that it will sit unopened for another 1-2 more years?"  Yep.

So I continue to learn patience.

I read to become a better parent.

I learn to forgive when I mess up.

I am a doer.  For those who know me know that I don't just sit.  I am always working on something.  And this is good.... sometimes.

However, I am learning to wait. 

To reflect.  

And to hopefully learn what God has planned for me.

I am learning that I need rest.  

I need reflection. 

I need the learning time.  

The time will come when I need to draw upon this deep rest.  

The time when I am active.  

The time when life tries to overwhelm me.

And so I learn rest.  

I choose to slow down and refresh.